I am a very closeted very married longtime crossdresser. I am on the full figured side. I do all the things a normal guys does, but have this attraction to being feminine.
I started dressing with my older sister's things, for a while it was in secret, but eventually she found out. She was great with it. She got a kick out of the fact that her tough guy brother could be so feminine. She helped me a bit , and when she left for college I had everything I needed. I felt that over the years I have grown up partially as a girl/woman. My clothes "grew up" as my sister's did. When she left home, ! started with mom's and became a housewife type, lol.
When Carol, ! do enjoy chatting with men and other CDs, but that's as far as I have gone, or will go at this stage.